Whatever.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

I think I'm ugly.



This song speaks my heart.
I'm not pretty and I'm not beautiful.
I'm so angry with myself, I don't understand why I'm ugly, is it because I did a lot of bad things in my past life?
When I look into the mirror, I hate my ugly appearance and what's on my mind is "WHY AM I UGLY?"
When I walk on the street, I look around and I feel every female beside me is so pretty and fashionable.
Me? I'm ugly, a spectacled girl, black/white tee shirt with jeans, hair that always messy..
I hate people look at me because I feel discomfortable maybe ... due to my ugly appearance.
I never insult a person's appearances or judge a person's appearances or tell a person "YOU ARE UGLY!"
Although people say someone is ugly, in my heart, I still think ... "at least he/she is better than me".
I want to be a pretty too. Tell me, which girl doesn't want to be a good looking girl?
I always tried but I failed in the end.

For an example, I wear colour contact lenses. Unfortunately, my eyes don't give me its' cooperation.
I feel discomfortable and the vision is blur due to my high astigmatism's power.
Of course, there is some lenses designed for astigmatism and myopia patient ... like me.
The price is expensive, not to say expensive, compared to normal lenses, it is.
So, I seldom wear contact lenses.
In the end, I still prefer spectacles than contact lenses.

There is still other ways to improve your appearance.
Makeup, the most common among ladies.
I never do makeup before even though my mother was an employee at a famous cosmetics company and she has a lot of makeup.
Forget about makeup. I'm such a failure.
I don't know why I had a boyfriend?
Fine.

If you know me, you definitely will know I'm a Korean freak.
I believe that you know every artist from Korea is so pretty / handsome.
Their prefect appearance makes me even more hate myself.
T_T why? I wanna be pretty like them too.

What am I?
ugly, fat, short, stupid, ignorant, useless, disgusting,
retarded in mental/physical/social development,
miserable, unloved, dumb, hated, overweighted,
HORRIBLE, TERRIBLE, INDESCRIBABLE!

Last one,
I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prety
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

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