I want to be skinny!

"I wonder what it feels like to be skinny, and thin, and wake up in the morning in nothing but a tshirt and panties and still feel sexy, to have guys look at me, to have guys want to be my boyfriend, to have girls be jealous of my body, to feel my hipbones and collarbones, to feel confident in a bikini, to sit down and not feel fat everywhere, to not rub out the thighs in my jeans, to need a smaller size in the store, i could go on forever." via Tumblr.

I am not overweight or underweight.

Nonetheless, fats in my body super duper annoyed me.

I want to wear skinny jeans without feeling my thighs are rubbing my jeans.

I want to wear short pants without feeling my legs are fat or not slim.

Like this!

I want to be skinny so much!

I want to feel my collarbones.

I want to feel no meat/fats around my armpit.

Like this!

I exercise 3 or 4 times per week at least 30 minutes for a couple of weeks.

Yet my weight is still the same or sometimes it slightly increases.

Do you know how do I feel when I read my weight from my scale weight?

I feel so disappointed with myself because the weight doesn't lose.

I don't starve. I take balanced meal everyday.

Chocolate and ice-cream, my favourite, I don't even eat it.

You should know how delicious is Famous Amos or any other cookies.

Can you see how yummy is it?!

During the Lunar New Year, we bought a lot of Famous Amos cookies.

When my cousins came to my house, each time I opened the cookies's packs,

I feel so sad because I COULDN'T EAT THEM! I AM ON DIET!

Why should I complain at here?

Uh... I just want to express my fucking-indescribable-failure-mood.

Dear Body,

I just want to lose some weights. Some......

Sincerely, Your Owner.

I want a skinny body.. to have a..